Don't you wish there was a rewind button on bad days? If there was, I would rewind and start yesterday all over. I can be a very short sighted and well to be honest a selfish person. I did not want to be at the family function yesterday. I did not want to change the normal scheduled time to accommodate my sister in laws stupid function. I did not want to play any games or chit chat. And that was abundantly clear to my hosts, my bro and his wife. So I should not have been surprised by the angry call from my brother hours later about what the heck is your problem? He was angry and hurt by my attitude and lack of respect I demonstrated..Ick.
see, I was so concerned about myself I failed to recognize their hard work and efforts. Having 20 people in your home when your kids are sick. Hosting the 3rd birthday party in 2 weeks. Just trying to have a fun day of games and family fellowship. Creating a positive family day as we celebrated their daughters first birthday.
Selfishness is an ugly thing it can blind you to what is really important. I don't know how many more times we will all be able to be together. We are fortunate to be close in distance to each other and I know it is not that way in all families. I genuinely love my family and our celebrations. I guess I just had a bad case of being self absorbed. While apologies have been made, and accepted I still wish there was a rewind button on the day...I know I would have done it different.