Monday, November 16, 2009


Don't you wish there was a rewind button on bad days? If there was, I would rewind and start yesterday all over. I can be a very short sighted and well to be honest a selfish person. I did not want to be at the family function yesterday. I did not want to change the normal scheduled time to accommodate my sister in laws stupid function. I did not want to play any games or chit chat. And that was abundantly clear to my hosts, my bro and his wife. So I should not have been surprised by the angry call from my brother hours later about what the heck is your problem? He was angry and hurt by my attitude and lack of respect I demonstrated..Ick.

see, I was so concerned about myself I failed to recognize their hard work and efforts. Having 20 people in your home when your kids are sick. Hosting the 3rd birthday party in 2 weeks. Just trying to have a fun day of games and family fellowship. Creating a positive family day as we celebrated their daughters first birthday.
Selfishness is an ugly thing it can blind you to what is really important. I don't know how many more times we will all be able to be together. We are fortunate to be close in distance to each other and I know it is not that way in all families. I genuinely love my family and our celebrations. I guess I just had a bad case of being self absorbed. While apologies have been made, and accepted I still wish there was a rewind button on the day...I know I would have done it different.

That's all.


  1. I'm sorry about that, but I know we've all been there. Sometimes it's hard for me to get over myself. I'm also VERY sorry about your loan to the state of CA. I'm sure WA isn't too far from developing that scheme!

  2. Hey FF!
    Thanks for the comment..Your my first ( The state of Cali thing bugs cause we could not vote on it, they just did it and we had no choice. I could go change the w9 though but what a hassle!
    I know the family stuff will get better too.

  3. I was born and raised in N California, left in 1988 because my job transferred me. It was hard to leave the state where I had spent my life, but I have to say after watching what the state has gone through in the past 10-15 years I am kind of glad that I am not there anymore.

    As for the family thing, well, we all have bad days. Those days when we would rather be anywhere else. I am one of those people that has always hated 'get togethers' for any reason. I have a problem with excessive noise and multiple conversations going on at the same time, so I avoid them if at all possible.
    I don't consider it selfish, I consider it self preservation. I envy those that love that environment and wish I could tolerate it too!

  4. Hi Keli,
    Thanks for the comment. I have grown weary of CA. I was born and raised here too. My hubs hates it (he is from Idaho) But my job is decent, that is saying something in this economy and family is here. I hear you on self preservation. Most of the time, I am good with the chaos, some days like Sunday..not so much. But I am hosting Thanksgiving, so I guess I will take a Xanax and all will be good!